With all the holiday hype I'm feeling overwhelmed; guilty that I don't have any pictures of Naomi printed from when she was a newborn babe. I have absolutely nothing of her printed of when she was in the hospital and after. Ok, maybe I do but nothing compared to what we have of Henry and Marcail! With the age of digital technology all her photos are on discs or on the computer.... Back to the holiday hype. Because of Christmas and the New Year just around the corner Walgreen's and CVS and all those other photo places are offering lots of cool deals for printing pictures and calendars and all that stuff....but you know what? I cannot get it together! I can't seem to make myself collect all the cds and get them organized to download onto the website and select which photos of baby Naomi I want to get printed!!!!! I am so sad because I feel like her babyhood passed by so quickly and I was so busy back then and my life was so chaotic and stressful and emotional that when I look at her baby photos on the computer I think, "Where did the time go? Who is that little baby? She doesn't even look familiar to me." Naomi was such a happy, pleasant baby. She wasn't very demanding of my attention which was so great because I was so busy with the twins. She was content to lie on the floor with some toys or roll around on the floor. She didn't really get into too much trouble. She spent lots of time roaming around my mom and dad's house (mine and the kid's home at the time too) in her walker. Not that she wasn't cared for and given lots of love and attention. We were living with my parents and youngest sister at the time. I assure you, she had plenty of attention. I just think back and realize she didn't get a lot from me. She was a joy and yet I hardly remember it!
I just want to print each and everyone of her precious photos and put them in a photo album and I think, "that can't be too hard." Then I really think about it and the dollar signs start dancing before me and I get overwhelmed. 100 pictures or so and a few photo albums add up! I don't pay attention to photo album sales! So, I get frustrated that I haven't been more organized in the photo department and organizing of the photos department. It gets huge in my mind and so all the discs sit on my desk and I just stare at them.
I never, ever do New Year's Resolutions but I have resolved to,
if I don't get around since I probably won't get around to printing 1000 pictures of my babies, I will spend more one-on-one time with the little loves and kiss those sweet cheeks and hold them more. They're going to be too heavy and long to hold soon! And then I'll really want to! I've already started and it's not 2010 yet. I don't need an excuse to do those things. The kids love the extra loves and cuddles. And their response to my attention is so precious. The hugs and kisses and cuddles are so much more important than a few pictures to hold and look at and the kids will feel way more loved by my affection than by seeing a few of their pictures in print!
Well, thank you for tuning into Tabitha's rantings. I'm better now!